The one who always by my side. :)

Getting ready for his cousin's bday party after staying one night at his house. *My family members all went for cruise -.-* 

What a big change. =.=

Family and Love

AHA! its me! It was my birthday. My family brought me a cake and have dinner at Mewah Club. Thanks mum dad.. :)
My bro did some crazy action there where he hit his head on the wooden house we sat in when the waiter dropped our drinks when he trying to step up into the wooden house. *Fuh, managed to summarized the whole story of my bro*
Well, I ady felt normal with his action. no comments..

Samsung Galaxy Tab 2 10.1!!!! Supposely not mean to be my present (bought before my bday) but dad told mum that this can also be my present (not face to face to me). =.='''

Sticky brought by Victor Tai HAHA! and Hello kitty also <3 p="p">

Internship Life

I am back.

With a new life.

I have finished all my biotech subjects in INTI. *HAHAHAHAHAHA!!! Relieved :D*

Now, I am having my internship in Kajang Pathlab. :)

Well, the working environment is okay for me. Just that I have communication problem with one colleague there. *Aih*

But all the tests carried out here is very unknown to me, expect ABO blood grouping test. =='''

At least, now I managed to learn half of the tests carried out there.

Here is some pictures...... ^^

They called this corner as 'Hema (ABO & ESR tests) department'. HAHA. Well, this is my first working corner. ==

Here is my sec working corner. I carry out serum separation and urine tests here. :)

Plate for ABO test 

Microscope for urine specimen's observation

VDRL test for syphilis

TPHA test for syphilis too.

 I will upload more pictures. *I hope so :)*

I like to work with my supervisor as she is a very friendly and 'ready-to-teach-me-at-anytime' person.
There are another 3 colleagues where I can also communicate with. *Although I seldom talk there*
But here is an aunty who work there too, where she kinda dislike me because I am too quiet? -.-
Well other colleagues know my pattern (as in only talks when there is something to talk about) but this aunty dislike me because I seldom talk her?
Well, she looks fierce and so thats why I seldom talks to her. There is this one time, she was talking to one of my colleague and she indirectly shot me about the untidy arrangement of the urine bottles (I did the urine tests the day before). Why not she just tell me face to face about it? stabbing me from my back and it hurts. *But at least I managed to act normal and listened to her 'indirect' advice*

There are also few times, where she gives me advice by telling to other colleague to direct the advice to me.
=______________________=
Other colleague is okay with me even though I am quiet there. Only her. =.= =.= =.=
Aih, but at least I am intern-ing there only. Not permanent staff or whatsoever.
*Thinking of wanting to work there after intern but now no more*

To be continued....

わたし

あたしわききです。
だいじおぶじゃない。
あたしわあたしのじんせいがすきじゃない。
あたしのじんせいわとてもにぶいです。

あたしわとてもかなしいです。
さびしいです。ぜったいうれしいじゃない。

October 2011

Semester 6...
5 subs...
still in INTI..
same hostel room...
different roommate...

having myself changed.
into a different person.
who doesnt wanna be a nerd anymore.
but to enjoy life as much as i can.
as in go for outings to have fun and not to be stucked in the room. always.
doesnt care about the results for tests. even CGPA.

reasons. だいじおぶじゃない。
I'm done with all those crazy, insane study styles.
I'm exhausted of studying.
I'm sick of my over-stressed days. and the dull, boring, and meaningless life.

I quit-ed. no more aiming for high marks o CGPA.
just ensure that i pass the subs.
finish all these insane subs. this course.

and i will never ever study science subject ANYMORE. not even master o watsoever.


Getting myself changed,
KIKI.

semester 4 in BBTEI

ok..
one word to describe my life now..

--> insane.

i feel very tired of studying sometimes...
study science is a very tough case , even if u like it or not.. ==****
it makes my life no more.. T.T
sometimes i feel lk i wanna finish my degree faster so tat i could come out n work..
no more study after degree T.T..

from a quiet girl, and now becoming a super crazy college student..
from a normal happy-go-lucky life, and now having a super duper busy life...

and kiki is becoming more physco than ever~~~ @@
super emotionally unstable...
life becomes dull...
having a big-loss-appetite problem...
mind degrading..loss of control..health problem..brain sickness..
hair fall + white hairsssss...
and lastly, study biotech till need to see counseling for myself to maintaining my
still-sane mind...

and i wonder what i will be after my degree =.='''''


seriously, science subjects are just for insane people..
and i might become one of them soon...=.=''''


so..this just brief post describing how my life is as a science student...


*saving myself*

random

love my life now..*although i hate it sometimes*

'coming soon' semester

WTH~

i thought i got only 4 sub to focus on for the 2nd sem..
T.T haihzz

fine le..wat to do..sien..
hope that i can cope better than last sem..=.=***

but im quite happy cox i only need to pay RM1400 for total fee due to 30% scholarship and PTPTN!
BUT BUT~~~

NOW..I CANT EVEN PRESS ONE OF MY HP BUTTONS!!!!DAMN SHITT!!!!
AND..I CANT GET BACK MY ID YETTT!!!DAMN..!!! T.T

one word to describe. no luck. haihz.


Gambatte kudasai~
kiki desu~

~all about 1st semester of degree~

first thing was....
meeting the lecturers in class...

chemistry : Mr. Yeap
-is a kinda gay lecturer where his act abit niangniang chiang..well he is okay...
but if u messed up with him, U DIE!

molecular and cell biology : Miss See
-oh god this lecturer..she is extremely damnly strict and serious in the class when i meet her..teaching us at the speed of light..and her voice can actually scare ur soul..==****...but after knowing her, she is quite friendly and good..and her lecture makes me understand more about BIO!! XD

maths : Mr. Nathan
-well, whenever u could smell a sweet perfume passing by, thats showed he is some where around you.. he is the most outgoing lecturer i every met..but before he start the class, he SURELY look at the glass of the door for reflection to comb his hair~!
==''''and u can actually see 4/5 bottles of BOSS in his office..........*the best part is he gave tips for all tests, wuhoo!!*

biotech : Miss Nisha
-she is quite okay but i dun reli like her attitude..and biotech words is just too difficult for me!!! @@!!!!!!

eng : Miss Florence
- we called her as a kindergarten teacher due to her lecture..=='''
grammar..tenses...read out essay one by one..OH GOSH! its kinda boring in her class and i felt sleepy all the time.....


eng maths and biotech is still an okay subject...but for chem and mcb..I DIE!!!
first first chem and mcb still okay..but in the middle of the sem.. this two sub can jst kill off my soul one shot!!

for mcb, its just too muchhhhh factttsssss to REMEMBER AND MEMORISEEEEE!!!!!!!
for chem, damn. sometimes i felt like calculation in chem is worst than in maths..==**can jst die off..

WORST NIGHTMAREs FOR BOTH SUB!!!!!!!!!

i cant believe that i actually finished with this two subs..*wuhoo*
finally i can rest my soul and mind as my soul ady WORKED OVER its LIMIT~
fuhhh~

now thinking of my two weeks holiday....
going to enjoy kaokao before next sem startss!!

enjoying,
ah ki

i have a really bad feeling.. T.T

WORRY.

...hand swollen due to molecular cell and biology test...

cny = b.o.r.i.n.g

one week holiday...
spending times and days with family..
stuck in the middle of 'going out or not' condition..
having cny mood-less..


aishiteru,
Kiki desu~

life sucks.

Frens abandon u..?
din ask u to go out together...?
ignore ur existence...?
act differently in front of u..?
talk about u behind ur back..?
can't have the same topic of conversation with them ..?
feel like u are jst the grass on the EARTH...?


WHAT THE HELL IS GOING HERE...
IT SUCKS...
WORST...
DAMN......


i have once wonder...
i noe YOU are trying to test me with some difficulties in my life...
but..i have tried..
jst that i cant get into their world...*so-called their world*

OR
did i made a mistake at the beginning when we meet each other...?
why...?why you guys have to be like this to me..?
i'm not monster...==''
my lifestyle weird?
or myself is weird?


okay...no comment...
I HAVE BEEN SO TIRED TO BE IN THIS SITUATION...
IS LIKE FOR ONE YEAR AND MORE..
AND I WONDER WHEN THIS SUCKS WILL END...

小さな変化が私の人生に大きな違いをもたらす

というのが私の人生が良く？
私は自分自身に戻ることができますか？

私は来年幸せに生活できることを願う

私は、再び間違った決断をしない
cause~
後悔..私は今年何を後悔する
だから私はもうすべての過ちを犯すことを願う

すべてのキキことをお勧め !!!

kiki is back!!!

just finished my foundation..==''

nowadays, im just
watch tv
on9
finding and watching japanese drama and manga
sleep
eat
bathe
shit
pee

lol~!
==''

i wanted to enjoy this holiday as much as i can..
but i just couldn't..

i don even noe what, where and when am i going to take my degree!!!
omgggosshhh~~

thinking almost half of the holiday weeks..and yet still not even think of any decision..

still confused~
still thinking~
still frustrating~
still questioning~
still blur-ing~

on this sat..going to nanyang education fair at PWTC..for more info.. @@
hope at there, i will be able to decide everything before next year~


Onegaishimasu~~ Kio tsukete~~
Sumimasen.......

secondary school friends are still the best.

T.T

life is just unfair....

sometimes we just have to accept it...accept it as ur fate..

even u like it or not, it is still ur fate to have this kinda life..

even u hate it so much or u feel lk wanna run away from it, u still need to face it

sooner or later..

life is just unfair...

5 weeks more~

hari kiamat.

why is it just happen on me...why only me..?
it seems lk im de ONLY one who is going to DO ALLLL THEEEE RESEEAARCCCHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!
i wonder what will happen when the time comes...

it was today.
the chem lecturer,miss kalai and bio lecturer,miss dena is going cooperate to prepare one project for us...
is something lk CSI~!!!!!!!!!!!!!
cooollllllll~~~~~~~~~~

but.
we all havta divide into 2 groups..
each group will have 5 people...
so me,potato,aniq,soong and komathy decided to be in one group....

BUT.
miss kalai said kenot have all girls in one group..

SO.
me potato and aniq havta separate..*and i dun understand why we r the one who is going to be separated...

miss kalai - kok seng, come here..discuss who wanna group with u..the girls..
potato - anything la..
kok seng - anything la miss~
miss kalai - hmm,den kok seng with aniq....errrmm,potato...ermm samore who..?
me - *raising up my hand and say me misss*
komathy - *smiling while raising her hand
miss kalai - *looking at kiki* and said - ok, komathy r in with them..
me - *terrible shock*
miss kalai - so u*kiki* in another group...

THEIR GROUP = first group - potato aniq kom kok seng and another guy
my group = kiki vic soong ahbeng and yong terk

in my group,there are 3 fellars who are reli very busy with their stuff..meeting here and there..and reli hard to cooperate with them..

i wasnt have any bad bad feeling tat time..
but..
in de bio class..potato aniq komathy and me are those students who wants their work done in best way...

so..i guess she should put at least potato and aniq..me and kom..in each group..
AT LEASTTTTT
IM NOT GOING TO HANDLE ALL STUFF BY MY OWN..at leasttt kom and i will do the work together..

and now..
i samore become the leader.. omg....
tat makes me even worst...
my life gonna be sufferinggggggggggg.......more than it could be...

i guess..now..mayb me and vic will do the research...the others......

soong - busy with CF stuff
ahbeng - everysec disappear to no where
yongterk - 'retake' student..senior..@@and r the one who doesnt come to class..




*sob*

i wanted to do this kinda big project with my close frens too..
and samore it is our last project in foundation..in 3rd sem..
aniq is going out from inti after foundation..tat makes me miss her more..

i guess i have no chance to do this CSI thingi with potato and aniq...

intro~~~

name : Hee Suk Chee

nickname : kiki,ah ki,sushi,suci..*and others which i dun reli remember..

age : 18 years old

my location : in INTI-UC at nilai, staying in a room with pao as my roommate XDXD

foundation programme : foundation in engineering/science..aka CFESI..

latest news : kiki is going to start her new third semester which is the last semester in CFESI (foundation)

degree course : *haven choose yet..mayb biochem or biotech...*if i know chinese words,i would have take the traditional medicine course!!==!!!

my car : silver kembara..*i dun remember the number plate at tis moment,tats y din write...

random : stopped my ballet(for some reason), practising 'kiss the rain' piano song, thought learning yoga, and trying to get rid of decidophobia~~~

**END**